Another Rant

It's 5.36 am and I can't sleep..

But I have absolutely no drive to study

My exam is in another 27 hours

But I would rather waste the 97200 seconds of my life right now

Updating my blog which died when I was having fun

Facebooking as usual like an addict

I don't know which part of me has gone wrong

one or two years back.. i would actually care to study even though it's the night before the exams

Now!!

I just feel like giving up!!

TOTALLY!!

Where has my drive to study gone to??

I am blardy STRESSED and

I don't want to end up like the freaking kid in that picture

*Even though I'm already half way there*

I'm stressed yet I am bored..

I wouldn't even be bothered to pick up the damn book and read something..

And I was darn stupid to sell my chem and phyiscs textbook beginning this year..

FTW!!!

And I hate being stressed

Because it gives me all the more reasons to eat comfort food

then my hips will end up like the picture above..

*not like I still have a long way to go to end up like that*

Australia is a curse

Like what veena had said

It's a curse

For people like me

who are not born thin and has an freaking low metabolism rate

and yet eat like a freaking pig

From all the eating out during cell lunch and the late night eating during cell groups and the frequent dinner plans and lalalala

GREASE has became my last name

and FATS have been the permanent resident in my body

WTH!!

I don't want to be on a diet my whole life..

How can some girls eat and never get fat?!?!?!

DAMN YOU

SKINNY BITCHES

p.s. I am also very very blessed here with awesome people.. just that I tend to complain more when I blog

or shall I say I tend to blog when i want to complain

After all this is the place where I can output my frustration

and hopefully mark my journey of growth

p.p.s GOD, I need your strength in me...

RAH!!!

I don't know why but i like to update my blog at the busiest time of my life

My unproductive holiday is

GONE

GONE

GONE

yeah

I know I have been slacking the whole year

I know I only study like the night before the test

I know sometimes i even go for my test without studying at all

I know I skipped classes more than I go for classes

I know I took my college life for granted

I know i keep repeating the same old mistake of procrastination

I know I have utterly and officially lost my drive to

STUDY

FML..

I haven't started anything for my semester two exams (except for one Applic exam paper *see Yi Ting, I'm not killing trees for no reasons*) and half of the time I wasn't even in class

Even if I am physically in class

My mind would wonder like miles and miles away

I don't want exams!!!

p.s. I wanted to blog bout my bday but was too busy doing unproductive stuff.. so yeah.. I am inefficient and screwed!!!! so the post is still kept in the draft section..

BREATHE

I can hear the clock ticking

I can hear my heart pounding

I can hear my own breath

I know

Time is running out

I regret for taking my life for granter here...

I need to find a new strength

The strength in Christ

To pull through this

Too fat for fashion

went to the city to have lunch with Rar Rar after work..

then found out that it is Perth Fashion Festivel

Too bad I didn't have my camera..

So, you guys have to suffer with this lousy quality video

I just happen so to walk into a fashion show

and mind you

This is like my very first fashion show

the real ones

by top designers from WA

not those stupid Kuching Ah-Lien inspired fashion show

by the streets

And I realized a few things

1) We are all too fat for fashion

These girls are like chopsticks..

Tall and skinny

When I say skinny they are darn skinny

It's not so scary to see them on videos.. they look "normal"..

Watch them on videos and imagine bout like 10-15 pounds off them

"Cameras makes you look 10 pounds heavier"

Imagine me, watching them live and less than 1m away from the runway..

sometimes I wonder how do all the organs like intestines, bones, lungs and lalala

fit into a body of such narrow diameter

And everybody knows that Australia is one of the fattest nation

but during the show..

I felt like I went into the fashion lookbook of Africa

where people are fashionably skinny

2) There's no such thing as an Asian model

Probably we are not tall enough for them

Probably our skin is too yellow for them

Probably our eyes are too small for them

Probably our hips are too wide for them

Probably it's not even our fault

3) There's no such thing as a plus size model

simple!!

Plus size are just too big for the runway

there's not even a single NORMAL looking model

Even those girls standing by the door

giving out brochures for the Fashion Festival are so darn skinny

4)The thinner you are

The more skin you show

It's true...

Although they are so so so thin

they will never have enough cloth to cover

Haha.. yet they cover the ones who are not as thin

Merdeka!!

Since today is Malaysia National Day, I shall start blogging in BM..

Just for TODAY!!!

Kita anak Malaysia yang sangat patriotik.. Kali-kali tulis esei puji puji Malaysia tetapi kadang-kala seperti hypocrite sahaja...

Kita anak Malaysia, berbangsa Cina, Melayu dan lain-lain, tetapi suka pergi ke luar negara untuk belajar.. Selepas belajar di luar negara, tak pernah pulang ke Malaysia

Kita anak Malaysia tetapi peta Malaysia pun tak faham.. Peta MRT Singapura dari Tanjong Pager ke orchard Road ke Vivo City dapat hafal

Kita anak Malaysia, belajar Bahasa Melayu untuk lulus dalam SPM sahaja. Selepas persekolahan, apa-apa berkaitan dengan tatabahasa pulang ke Cikgu juga..

Kita anak Malaysia, selalu membuat aduan dan menyaksikan politik Malaysia seperti menonton drama OC

Kita anak Malaysia, apabila belajar di luar negara.. kena ketawa orang asing Bahasa Inggeris kita sucks

Kita anak Malaysia yang begitu patritik sehingga saat untuk pergi ke Khidmat Negara terus cabut dengan memohon untuk belajar di luar negara..

Kita anak Malaysia yang begitu mencintai tanah tumpah kita sehingga kita belajar dengan tekun and berkerja di luar negara...

ya!! Kita anak Malaysia...

Merdeka!!!!

**My BM now sucks to the core... go ahead and laugh laugh laugh... I haven't used BM for like 8 months or more already k???

Happy National Day Malaysia.. YOU'RE SO OLD NOW!!!

AWESOMENESS...

AWESOME!!

I think

Pink is AWESOME


Camwhoring is AWESOME

Rach's AWESOME-EST camwhore pic

Dance is AWESOME

LV is AWESOME


My cell members are AWESOME

My Lo Kung is super AWESOME
Always listen to me talk and talk and keep talking

My housemate and her Mechanical Engineering Gang are AWESOME people

Fuzion is AWESOME

AWESOME birthday celebration
where Kathleen's dance and acting was AWESOME-R

Having dinner with Rar Rar and XY is AWESOME
And my parents paid that night.. so one level up from awesome


My cookies and milk with my favourite book is AWESOME

Shopping is AWESOME
Obviously the blonde in there is not me

Rar Rar is definitely Awesome k?
My favourite person in the world..

Spending time with my girls in Swan Valley where
everyone was asked for their ID and I was not
thou I'm the only underage was
AWESOME

My Kuching friends are AWESOME
I miss you all.. clay.. I shall drop by SG to visit you again..


This woman next to me is totally not AWESOME la
she's FANTABULOUS
my partner in crime..
put us in a room and you won't get a second of silence


Illegal drinking made legal with my Dad
more than AWESOME

My family is way beyond AWESOME

Taking pics for my daddy and rar rar screams AWESOME

My manufacturers are AWESOME

The reason I am posting this awesome-list is because
I will be disappearing from the internet for 40 hours and won't be eating for 40 hours in conjunction with the 40 hour famine
I hope you people out there will donate and support those poor kids in Africa

GAGA

GAGA

IT'S THE Gaga FEVER NOW!!!




I think she has this weird look but still people adore her like CRAZY

"Let's have some fun this beat is sick.. I wanna take a ride on your disco stick..."